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imagine yourself as someone who never thought about touching a freaking cat but this one time theres this cute kitten that caught your attention. its fur was as soft as your pillow and its body was very tiny. you gave your all, your bravery. you took risks just because you  adore that kitten so much. it seems harmless that you try to hug it so tight. and gave affection like super duper loads of lavhhhh. but after awhile, it got bored and sick of your kissing and hugging and ugh everything. so all it wants to do was escape. ways to escape? jump away .so masa nak lompat tu,  it left a sctrach on your wrist while pushing itself forward. so there you were also coupled with pain and you couldn't see anything else cause the fiery feel is distracting you. you wanna be mad but you were still filled with pretty hearts so you try to catch it again, tries to tame it with other ways to let it like you. you tried so hard but the scars on you adds with the times you fail. the bleeding cu...

Let Me Free  Chords : Em C G D  Do you have uneven scars on your hands or at your wrist? Have you ever mishandled your angers on your dearself  Are there bruises of blue blacks on those cute knuckles of yours? Cause I do, have it all and it's all because of you. Of you. Someone help me get me out off from this hell My life is a mess and with you it's a curse Call your witch and stop it now  Casue I wanna go and untie the knot between you and me  Your love is so painful eventhough it's so beautiful  Please just let me free You're like roses, roses with thousands of thorns You prick me everytime, but I still pick you up You're love is painful it can blind my eyes and hide your flaws  And theres me, the one whos falling so hard for you My life is a mess and with you it's a curse Call your witch and stop it now And I don't need you, cause I keep on getting scars eventhough...

its currently 22:38 in mecca and i'm on the van heading to jeddah airport & balik Malaysiaaaa 💗💗 . & yea its official i have wheelchair-aphobia. ever since we arrived, we had to rush to everywhere we go including with those prickled ones. and ive always had been scared of getting hit by a trolley, wheelchair & such. though people told me not to think about bad things during my stay at Tanah Haram ((cause it'll happen)) , i smh did. so unfortunately on our way to tawaf wida' (which is what all jemaah have to do on the last day in mecca before going out of tanah haram) there was one staff in a rush while pushing a wheelchair, then bam he accidently bumped into my leg, humans make mistakes so i was okay. but obviously it hurts, i checked it while we were on the escalator and it was fine besides the torn socks tho haha. so we walked towards our own directions and i took a cup of zam zam water. when i was about to drink, ibu scolded me for not saying my du'a w...

You know you've been hurt when you cry while trying to write inspiring passages . You know you've been hurt when you care for someone too much that they hate you for treating them like a child. You know you've been hurt when you repost every depressing quote you find. It's because you know, where you've been. The happiness and warmth of someone loving you was like being placed on an arrow as they shot you away through skies full of sunlight and rainbows. Though you're still like a toddler, still figuring out the puzzle of life, but you refuse to listen to what others say because you thought your love towards them was nothing compared to the things around you. Though what you didn't know was the ending, where you smash into the ground from high and break into all those happy memories you found within the beautiful view. Everything, tore into pieces. The skies, where you used to look at and hold hands together and just....watch time pass. The clouds where ...

Hopes are the things that crushed me into million pieces. The hope of someone being there for me,  to pick me up and give me the strenght to move on. The hope of someone is there faithfully waiting no matter what,  even after hard falls in life, they're still there for you to look back and smile but.. no.                                 "Dream on dearself, dream on" I say to myself everytime.. As a kid we hoped for sweets, birthdays, toys, and such, well those were the days where everything  that meant happiness to us was easy to find. Now ,        finding happiness is  hard, even hoping for it is pointless. In a scale of 1-10, 8 depends their happiness on others. tips; Never lose yourself while trying to hold on to someone who doesn't care about losing you.                            ...

someone who would understand even when i'm mumbling in english. even when i'm super happy, crying of hatred, mad and everything else. each piece of that person, i'll promise to love for being my source of happiness.. but somehow i cant please everyone who managed to make me happy 😔 and im deeply sorry if i had ever hurt you badly. i feel like a kid growing in a nutshell full of rules. So many boundaries that i'm scared one day i wont be able to control myself when i'm free. i need guidance, i dont rlly want to be treated as a young lady.. Yet. I wanna be free as a girl and have fun not having to be insecure but instead care less about people judging me all around. Having to accept the fact that i'll be fifteen makes me cry everynight realizing i'll be losing so many more people on the way .. I cant. Im not good with farewells. Not good with saying goodbyes. I'm good at faking it and gosh only god knows how it rips me apart when I have to be apart with p...