hopes


Hopes are the things that crushed me into million pieces.
The hope of someone being there for me, 
to pick me up and give me the strenght to move on.
The hope of someone is there faithfully waiting no matter what,
 even after hard falls in life, they're still there for you to look back and smile but.. no.
                                "Dream on dearself, dream on" I say to myself everytime..

 As a kid we hoped for sweets, birthdays, toys, and such,
well those were the days where everything  that meant happiness to us was easy to find.
Now , 
     finding happiness is  hard, even hoping for it is pointless.
In a scale of 1-10, 8 depends their happiness on others. tips; Never lose yourself while trying to hold on to someone who doesn't care about losing you.

                                                                             why?
Dear Readers,
         Have you ever felt that you lost hope in life?
Lost your way of heading to..
and when you try putting trust on someone,
 hoping they'll comfort you cause that is all you ask for
but instead they laugh at you while calling you a sensitive emo btch.

Have you ever sat with your friends and just known
 that you're the least important friend in the group
and you felt like it wouldn't make a difference if you were there or not.
So you left, hoping others will ask you why 
but instead they made it a big a deal and got you in a fight.

Have you ever fell for someone,
so hard that you gave him everything?
Set your eyes just for him,
You watch him hurt you, hoping he'll care about
 how it affects you every night.
Surrender before every girl who got his attention.
hoping he'll notice your affections
.but instead you're still the idiot.

so in the end, even after so many efforts..
you'll end up being alone. ironicly stated in every emo social sites.
proven its right that you should really stop puting your happiness on other's shoulder.
you gotta be strong on your own.
be that elegant fearless beautiful lioness.
you'd be lying if you tell me that you never cried just because you felt the insecurity in you building up a tomb against your confidence to stop you confront the people around you. 

insecurity
=
low confidence & self esteem
= 
leads to where you compare yourself with others and hate yourself for being "imperfect".

darling, wake up.

No one is perfect, no one needs to tell you you r perfect the way you are just to make you realize it.
everyone knows, embrace it bby girl. werk your fabness to kill'em.
shoot them with your confidence :)
but don't hurt them cause we don't wanna be like those mean girls right ? kay good,

there's so many situations where we end up hoping and making ourselves realize that we're not worth it when you could have just leave everything behind and haunt for happiness yourself 
cause the best someone to make you happy is you, yourself.
ask yourself all your favourite things and things you love to do to cheer yourself up,
 i guarantee you can answer it. take time for yourself, go ahead.
listen to loud music and dance in your room like a crazy maniac,
sing like a high retard and embrace your flaws,
love the way you smile, laugh, dress and how you be yourself.
STOP HOPING FOR OTHERS
-you don't need those useless hopes-
aim for positivity <3
babe you're worth it xx

sincerely written by one of you,
niknyleahani.









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