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its currently 22:38 in mecca and i'm on the van heading to jeddah airport & balik Malaysiaaaa 💗💗 . & yea its official i have wheelchair-aphobia. ever since we arrived, we had to rush to everywhere we go including with those prickled ones. and ive always had been scared of getting hit by a trolley, wheelchair & such. though people told me not to think about bad things during my stay at Tanah Haram ((cause it'll happen)) , i smh did. so unfortunately on our way to tawaf wida' (which is what all jemaah have to do on the last day in mecca before going out of tanah haram) there was one staff in a rush while pushing a wheelchair, then bam he accidently bumped into my leg, humans make mistakes so i was okay. but obviously it hurts, i checked it while we were on the escalator and it was fine besides the torn socks tho haha. so we walked towards our own directions and i took a cup of zam zam water. when i was about to drink, ibu scolded me for not saying my du'a w...

You know you've been hurt when you cry while trying to write inspiring passages . You know you've been hurt when you care for someone too much that they hate you for treating them like a child. You know you've been hurt when you repost every depressing quote you find. It's because you know, where you've been. The happiness and warmth of someone loving you was like being placed on an arrow as they shot you away through skies full of sunlight and rainbows. Though you're still like a toddler, still figuring out the puzzle of life, but you refuse to listen to what others say because you thought your love towards them was nothing compared to the things around you. Though what you didn't know was the ending, where you smash into the ground from high and break into all those happy memories you found within the beautiful view. Everything, tore into pieces. The skies, where you used to look at and hold hands together and just....watch time pass. The clouds where ...

Hopes are the things that crushed me into million pieces. The hope of someone being there for me,  to pick me up and give me the strenght to move on. The hope of someone is there faithfully waiting no matter what,  even after hard falls in life, they're still there for you to look back and smile but.. no.                                 "Dream on dearself, dream on" I say to myself everytime.. As a kid we hoped for sweets, birthdays, toys, and such, well those were the days where everything  that meant happiness to us was easy to find. Now ,        finding happiness is  hard, even hoping for it is pointless. In a scale of 1-10, 8 depends their happiness on others. tips; Never lose yourself while trying to hold on to someone who doesn't care about losing you.                            ...