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if i stop reaching out to fix things. if i stop walking on eggshells to protect u. if i stop holding myself back from acting the way u do & not reason things with "maybe this is why god made us two". if i stop trying to see the good things in u. will we still be two? i feel so many things slipping away but i got too tired of chasing. so I'm just gonna let myself sink in the separation anxiety birthed from the consciousness, in hopes gets too much to the extent of me numbing to it. by then hopefully, i won't feel too bothered of doing what i want & need for myself. since i'm an adult now, my people pleasing habit should slowly be minimized to make sure i'm doing the most for myself. i used to think being the victim is better than being the bad person but smh as an adult, my perspective changed along with the ignorance people have shown me. how the world has proven enough that we are all on our own. how things in our lives alters to our choices in litera...

Assalamualaikum and hi everyone, this is Nylea <3 Today I went to my high school, my alma mater. Back then I drained myself daily trying to make the fullest of my days on consistently proving to others that I am a nice kid. Always going lengths to prove to teachers that I am a decent kid, unlike whatever they may have heard. Back then I was constantly misjudged that it became a permanent reason to always be defensive. Honestly, it made me felt so lonely. It felt like I always had to be on my toes to not ruin any of my efforts. Funny because even till today, the teachers I meet today are more interested in my friends instead of me. Even till today, I have teachers looking me up and down. Even till today, I still feel like I did something wrong when truly they were the wrong ones for judging a child. How is it that I’ve contributed a whole lot to the school but I feel like all I am remembered as was the troubled kid.   I had fun being in the school compound. Always did and always ...