what is trust ?

what is trust?
answering this gives me goosebumps remembering the things that happened to me. 
asking others makes me wonder way much more.
reading from the internet gives me such speculations.

but what i feel about it ; 

trust is the feeling of putting yourself in his/her hand without feeling doubtful for if that person would ever let you cry in the middle of the night 'thanks' to them.
trust is the thing that pushes you in life to keep on living cause theres always the ones that can be counted at times when you're falling.
trust is knowing you can turn to them to tell your worries, rants about life and things you really need to let out of your heart. 
trust is actually having friends to depend on to tell you whats wrong, whats right.

but why..
why are things becoming the opposite.
was i wrong of its definition?
was trust never any of what i've thought?
was trust actually something to be doubtful of?

no. its the people i  trust were the wrong ones.



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