hugs and kisses to all

To those who mean a lot to my girl friends, guy friends, etc. I'm in his/her life just to be their friend in need, a company when they feel lonely and someone to make them happy. not to take advantage of being a good person. No, cause thats too fake la ..and also I do wish for you to not ever compare me to the ones they had before cause I know I'm not pretty neither born with such great personality everyone would praise and definitely not something he/she could boast around. Well I do want everyone to like our friendship or relationship but whatever it is  I just hope you'll tell me my imperfections in a nice way. Something that would place in my mind, not making me feel bad like I'm being such a prick to them. 

I lived like a clown, trying to make people laugh and happy even though I realize I'm being a joke to them. I do get attention but as a laughing material. Sometimes they don't realize that I do have feelings too. They don't overthink about how I would feel if they only come to me when they have problems or feeling lonely. 

I am likely to be very hyper like almost all the time. Indeed very talkative so I am aware how some people mock me for being myself by doing all those 'hambar jokes'. Saying "You're lucky cause I'm the only one who would listen to your lame jokes" .. Well ouch. Yes I live in a family where mocking is how we show we love each other instead of telling each other we're perfect. But you have to know that we have a certain way of doing it, masa ejek, ejekla kuat mana pun tp masa sayang, you gotta be there with all your heart. That's why we are very close but it was I, who neglects to show it to the world.  

Tbh, to those who said I was sensitive, please do smack the sense out of yourselves for that it was the result to your very own actions.